Hello motherless community,
I've got a question to all of you and I hope someone with experience can help me out a little.
Now this is 100% real, but I don't blame you if you doubt me.
So I'm a 22 year old Dutch guy. My best friend (who I know since Elementary school) came to me a few weeks ago telling me he was gay. Now this came to me as a somewhat of a shock since he had his fair share of girls. However, he's been single for a while now, not even chasing women. That's logical since him coming out of the closet to me. He told me that I was the first to know, he didn't even tell his parents yet. But this wasn't the big shock. An even bigger shock came after what he told me next. He told me that he was in love with me. Now THAT was a big... HUGE shock. I didn't know what to say. There was an awkward silence after his confession. He broke the silence, knowing that I'm not gay at all and told me that he knew that and didn't expect anything of it. He just thought it was fair to let me know.
I told him I respected that and admired him of being able to do these huge confessions to me. I asked how long he was in love with me and he replied that it was for a year now. He found out he was gay with his last girlfriend and broke up with her, but the feelings for me did not come right away.
With still hung out after that, but for me it did become a bit awkward. He doesn't act differently around me now, so that is awesome, but I can't help but feel sorry for him. I kinda feel like I'm friendzoning him. Now I know it's not the case, but I still feel this way.
Now the part of my little confession. I'm not gay, but I'm kinda willing to help my friend. He told me he did not have any sexual contact with another man. Let me be clear, I don't want him anywhere near my asshole. But you know, I kinda wanna... I don't really know how to say this. But I'm considering him to check out my body in a somewhat sexual way, so that he could feel comfortable around a mans naked body. Perhaps even letting him giving me a BJ. But, that's about it and I do not even consider doing more.
My question to you guys, should I do it, or would it be even more awkward since he is my best friend. Anyone has experience with a situation similar to mine? Please give me some advice.
And yes, I understand if people think this is fake just to get attention and you have a right to that opinion, but I swear that this is the truth.
